Splinters: something so small that can cause a whole lot of trouble.
My daughter, Lydia, got one in her toe the other day and being the self-controlled six year old that she is, proceeded to wail, scream, sob, and whine from the playground to my side.
At first thought, one might think her entire foot was going to fall off or that the splinter was more the size of a 2 x 4, but….no! Upon inspection, I discovered the 1/2 cm speck of wood chip stuck in her big toe and waiting for maternal surgery (which I actually enjoy…he, he, he)Lydia wanted to try to get the splinter out herself, so she took my little set of tweasers and went to work, wailing and moaning along the way.
After a few moments of vain attempts, she handed the tweasers back to me.
“I can’t do it!””
Are you ready for me to try?” I asked.
“Is it going to hurt?””Yes, it is, but I’ll try to be as careful as I can.”
She sniffled, nodded, bit down on her bottom lip, and started wailing before the tweasers even touched her toe. I have no idea where she gets such a melodramatic personality…;-)
So, after the trauma, she put both her arms around me and gave me a hug.
“Thank you, Mama. I’m tougher now.”
Sure she is!!
God, I can do it. I don’t want to give it to You! You might make me hurt….you might lead me through pain…..You might guide my paths through the valley of death, or the road of bankruptsy or up the hill of rejection…..God, can I trust you?
Do you ever secretly wonder these things? For example, “Lord, if I really give you my whole heart and trust you to do whatever you will to make me more like you…..what will you do? What will you make me go through?” At the heart of these questions, is doubt. We doubt that God loves us and has the best in mind for us.
Somehow, we forget the amazing truth that God sent his son Jesus down to die for our unworthy, hateful, embittered souls…..why? Because of love….REAL love.
Sometimes we forget God’s promise of working ALL things together for our good and His glory because we doubt His control and His love.
In the instance with my daughter and her splinter, i thought of one of the verses of the Psalm 30 that says, “Weeping endures for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” Read the entire Psalm to get the full picture. It’s all about God’s mercy, rescue, and love. Another verse within that chapter reads, “You turned my wailing into dancing…”
To remove the splinters of bitterness, unforgiveness, betrayal, or loss, God might have to dig a little bit in our souls, clean us out with the peroxide of His sacrifice, but He always leaves the balm of his healing grace in the place of the wound.
We can trust Him with our deepest hurts, because He gave His life for our healing…ultimate healing.
Lord, help us to love you with our whole hearts so that the fears and doubts which so easily distance us from you, will be wiped away in the shadow of your great love. Help us to offer our lives up to you for service, in whatever way You see fit and may we look out what comes into our lives as opportunities to trust You. Help us to believe you truly love us and You are in control. Amen